One time like that, I remember falling into sexual sin. During the cause of the whole thing, the young man poured oh! Kai, what a hypocrite I was. I jumped out of the bed feeling more concerned about the damage it would do to my Christian title if eventually I get pregnant from the sprayed sperm.

For some minutes, I thought about the many persons especially young girls under my mentorship that will feel very disappointed and possibly fall out of the faith. To make matters worse, I was ovulating at the time when the incident occured. For over two weeks, I couldn’t step out for my ministry work. My heart was heavy with guilt & shame. I cried severally, begging GOD to have mercy on me not for myself but for those looking up to me. You can imagine such hypocrisy!

I remember how the devil started whispering to me that I should prepare to be a mother. To make matters worse, that period I started having several movements in my stomach. And everytime, the devil would tell me that it’s the baby that’s moving. Hmmmmm……I almost lost my mind at some point sef! You see, GOD is so merciful. HE couldn’t stand me going through such torture. That month, my menstruation was 3 days early.

It was when I started menstruating that I realized the level of hypocrisy I had exhibited all along. I know in the past how I felt disgusted on seeing sisters that had children out of wedlock, I mean what difference did it make? Some of those ladies even without the spiritual titles like me obviously had a better attitude than me in these matter. Come on! They were compassionate enough to let the baby live regardless of what people will say, if it was me wouldn’t I have aborted the child just to keep my spiritual titles intact?

As the menstrual blood flowed out down my thighs while I was in the bathroom bathing that morning, I sobbed heavily. Thanking GOD for HIS Mercy & asking HIM to forgive my hypocrisy.
Beloved, GOD is not mad at you for falling into temptation. HE knows that days like that will come & that’s why HE has released HIS grace to go ahead of you, always available whenever you fall to help you stand up, dust up & move on in your pilgrim race.

Because ELOHIM has not condemned you, you have no right to condemn others just because they sin differently from you. It’s enough that we have sinned, stop giving excusing for living in sin & stop hiding your filthy acts just because you want to appear perfect while you are dinning daily in sin.

Choose to live for GOD because you love & fear HIM not because you want the world to applaud you. If there are dirty habits you are struggling with, apart from praying about it, I advise you talk to someone. Are there deadly things you have done in the past that is hunting you? Please, talk to a matured believer today. And remember, your past was just a lesson. You are forgiven!

I pray for you, receive grace to consistently overcome temptations & live in GOD’S mercy in JESUS name, amen!