I Can’t Believe I Watched Porn Again!

Can't believe I watched porn again!

I Can’t believe I watched porn again!
Would I be saying a lie if I blamed the devil? Or was it just me wanting to do it?
A few minutes ago I picked up my phone to make an online research on an ongoing project I’m a part of. Opened Google chrome and inputted my search words…My intention was to get the research done and log off the internet afterwards.


See me scrolling through an archive of helpful informations when this wonderful pop-up appeared on the screen…did I say wonderful? No, it’s not at all… at least not anymore.
On the pop-up was a game ads… a good looking one- by good looking, I mean “nudely looking”. It said “tap and play!” My heart started racing. The pressure to fall for this was intense…the last time i tapped on this kind of ads it led to a porn site…I spent some quality time on the site. So bad. A day before now I promised God I wouldn’t do this anymore, I meant it. I logged off the internet and put my phone away.


So what?? You may ask..
I picked up my phone again, yeah I did.
While away from my phone, all I could think of was the fun of having to see those nudes again. The sexual appealing pictures continually flashed through my mind, the videos- they played in my head so vividly. What could I do? I tried saying a prayer but …did I really want to miss this? I put away praying.
Don’t ask where my promise to God went to, cos it didn’t cross my mind now…even if it did, I guess I would have snubbed it.


My heart beat faster and watching porn seemed to be the only chill-pill… I took my ear piece, carefully selected the best porn site and did it.
It was after that I remembered I promised God never to do it again! I don’t think I was myself all the while!
Maybe the devil manipulated me…or probably it’s just my Achilles heel…Either ways I know I’d always do it again. I feel so guilty and empty on the inside!
Would God trust me if I promise I’d never do it again? Oh no, I’ve broken His trust more than I can count. Couldn’t even last a week before breaking them… highest – three days interval. OMG! What do I do now???


Pornography is a captivity scheme of the devil, he uses this lustful act to put souls in bondage.
For deliverance to take place in the lives of those already into this act, they need to be set free from where they have been held captive. A rescue is urgently needed, thank God for Jesus.


Luke 4:18 KJV
“The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he hath anointed me to preach the gospel to the poor; he hath sent me to heal the brokenhearted, TO PREACH DELIVERANCE TO THE CAPTIVES, and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty them that are bruised”
We obviously didn’t hear Jesus went to free physical prisoners in captivity (prison break) during his stay on Earth…so what captives did he come to free then? He came to free those whose souls are been subjected to satanic captivities in the cells of death and hell. This is a serious matter.
You can’t serve God right if your soul is been held captive in dark places.
We hear King David cry out to God because of this, he wasn’t just literal here. He spoke from deep revelation.


Psalms142:7 NKJV
Unfortunately this is the case of millions today. The devil has the biggest prison yard ever.
It was one of Jesus key assignments to set us free from satanic captivities. His dieing on the cross has now given us the platform to be set free. Hallelujah!
Now that God has made it possible for you and I to escape from these strange captivities. We now need to consciouly use our authority as believers to command our total freedom!
It’s a war for our soul so deliverance prayers are required with proper understanding! And total faith in action. A thorough spiritual check and counseling is also needed in our individual lives.


we need to put our lives in accordance to the will of our Maker.
I believe you can now pray with understanding against this bondage called ponography.
God bless you

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