After my secondary education, we had traveled down to the east where I was supposed to sit for Post UTME exams.
At this time, I already had plans of how I was going to live my life in the University and all of that. Yeye plans
How I was going to be a party girl, double date, be dressing to kill, blah blah blah.
I’m sure my angels would be laughing and waiting to see how I planned to go ahead with such shallow plans . Chineke nna!
I got to the east( Enugu precisely). Funny enough, I was supposed to sit for two post UTME exams, for ABSU and ESUT.
I wrote the first one, but I was some marks short of the cut off so it didn’t work out.
That year, they kept postponing the date for the other Post UTME I was supposed to write. The plan was for me to write it and go back home with my dad, but because of that I now had to stay back in Enugu with my Sister while he returned home.
You’re about to hear my amazing love story. Stay tuned.
Staying with my sister opened me up to a whole new life.
The first Sunday I spent there, we had a little quarrel because she was so zealous to meet up with the time for Service and I was just relaxed; taking my time to clean my shoes, apply all the applyables.’ Because I couldn’t understand why someone will be that active early in the morning and disturbing me to go to church.
I was even angry that morning sef. Which one is that I won’t eat till I come back from church? It was strange to my ears. As in I should go hungry to church when I didn’t kill anybody? PS: Fasting was a once-in-a-blue moon thing at the time.
I went anyways.
I stepped into the Youth Church and I saw young people my age and older deeply lost in worship to God. Some were crying. Some deeply soaked in worship to God and praying fervently in the Spirit.
Questions began to come up in my mind.
“How come these young people love Jesus like this?”
“How can someone be crying and worshipping God? How does it happen?”
I came from a Christian background, but I was hardened at the time partly because I had given my life to Christ in SS1 and I still fell back. So I just wanted to enjoy my life to the fullest. I believed that whatever is worth doing should be done well i.e. I wanted to be a bad girl to the fullest.
Nothing unusual happened to me in that Service. No one preached to me or even laid hands on me, but something I couldn’t explain was stirred in my heart.
It went on and on but I had already placed a big resistance in my heart and told myself that “Love gat nothing on me.”
Another day, she(my sister) came again and told me that we would be going for a vigil and my vexation was increased.
I didn’t have a choice, so I just had to prepare for the vigil.
We got to church and the vigil was a heavy one. Spirit-filled brethren were present and people were pressing into God. I kukuma nor send anybody, after all, na force dem force me come.
I was trying to pray o, but in my mind, I was like “what are these ones even doing sef?”
Piam! They started doing Holy Ghost ministration and people were falling under the anointing.
I was chewing gum where I was and just told myself that kolework. One Sister like this came and held my hands…I sha fell- the great iroko!
On the floor, I kept saying if you like do whatever you want to do I won’t pray in tongues. And of course, I didn’t.
I didn’t see the need for him nor desire him so there was no way he could fill me.
After the vigil, this sister took it upon herself to speak with me. And I was real to her, I told her my fears- how that I wouldn’t be able to live like every normal girl out there again, how I didn’t want to be a church girl, yen yen yen.
She spoke God’s word to me and I was convicted.
Hard girl! Hard girl!!
I had my fears… So many doubts. What ifs? But I counted the cost and decided to go ahead with him.
He had been working on my heart all the while and when he finally posed the question, I said YES!
From that day, I began to love Jesus. I desired prayers and I enjoyed studying the word.
I didn’t know much back then, so whenever I got back to church, I would just go through my jotters, pick out prayer points and pray it in for hours(in English o).
I started praying at midnight too…
It went on and on and I began to desire the outpouring of the Holy Spirit. In that season, God began to deal with me… cutting, pruning, etc.
I went for different ministrations, yet I wasn’t filled with the Holy Spirit. I kept desiring him. I would worship, cry, sing, but it wasn’t forthcoming. I was hungry!
And after three months of consistent waiting and pressing, he filled me without anyone laying hands on me and it was the best experience of my lifetime. The feeling was heavenly.
He probably knew that I wouldn’t cherish him so he had to let me hunger for him.
I said yes to Jesus!!!
And I’ll say yes over and over again.
It’s been an amazing ride, 4 years precisely and I have no regrets whatsoever. I’m still standing and I haven’t fallen. It’s Jesus today, tomorrow and forever!
You can say yes too today- those fears won’t matter again once you decide to let him help you. It won’t be a struggle, he would give you the Grace to live for him.
When a man proposes to a lady she can decide to say yes or give the dreaded- NO.
It’s a matter of choice and something that is done deliberately. Remember, the Holy Spirit is a perfect gentleman and he won’t force himself on you.
An invisible hand kept me, It shielded me from the evil plans I had made for myself because he knew the plans he had for me. A plan of good and not of evil. He kept charting the course of my life when I was busy making other plans.
Still, standing around the fence and scared to jump in? Stay close a little more and you will be implicated, I can assure you. You won’t even know how you will fall in love with him.
You can’t come close to Love himself and not be consumed.
When he begins to draw you, please don’t be scared, and don’t run away. Give him a chance, please.
And please, if you have a younger sibling, probably a teenager you’re trusting the Lord to encounter… Don’t give up. Don’t keep quiet. Keep rebuking. Keep correcting. Keep dragging him/her to church. And, most importantly keep interceding for his/her. His salvation is near.
(All of you that were expecting the whole Awwwn stories, calm down you hear. Time never reach). I know some people’s hearts are already shifting, it will yet shift, be patient.
I love you Unapologetically
Precious Nmesoma Okoh